"On the other hand this not knowing has its charms" - Joe Fox
I have always had people plan for me what I wanted to do with my life. And I made myself believe that all this is happening with my best interests in mind. I was an above average student, got through school then went to a college, got a job and was earning enough to fend for my own needs. This is when my so-called self-realization started bugging me. I mean what am I doing with my life. Whilst in college I always liked coding and imagined going to office to do some more of explicit coding - I had no idea back then what kind of life I was vying for. Now that I'm more than 3 years into IT I realize how terribly wrong I was.
During the first 2 years I had no time to ponder over this considering all the time I had to spend commuting from home to office and the rest of it dedicate to a delicately placed support project. Then with God's grace my project changed and so did the location. I now had quite some opportunity for coding. Just when I began to think I might like this stuff, came the second blow! I was shifted to another support project.
Now I think maybe this is God's plan for me. He/she, whoever it is, doesn't want me to stay in this field and is providing me with opportunities to get the hell out of here and find my place in this big wide world. This very thought seems to light me up. It gives me a new hope of moving forward and doing my bit of best to figure things out for myself.
The whole anonymity of the situation - of not knowing what's out there, is what lures me even more into finding it out! The hope that something wonderful might happen if I just give it a try (and not hold myself back and think what others might think of me) gives me the strength to move on. Somebody once told me, 'You know when you write don't think much about it, just go ahead and write what you have to'. I guess the same holds true for almost anything and everything. I never really got hold of the old saying in Gita 'Karmanye Vadhikaaraste Maafaleshu Kadaachanuh' - I mean how can I work for something without even knowing what to expect. Now somehow, I understand the situation. If you want something, just go ahead and do it, without thinking of the odds in the way. If what you do does not hurt anybody else, then what's the harm!
Words are so damn powerful.... used in the correct manner they have the power to manipulate your thoughts (mogoj dholayi, wow!!) I came across this blog - http://literaryjukebox.brainpickings.org/post/62896499485 - very inspiring :)
I have always had people plan for me what I wanted to do with my life. And I made myself believe that all this is happening with my best interests in mind. I was an above average student, got through school then went to a college, got a job and was earning enough to fend for my own needs. This is when my so-called self-realization started bugging me. I mean what am I doing with my life. Whilst in college I always liked coding and imagined going to office to do some more of explicit coding - I had no idea back then what kind of life I was vying for. Now that I'm more than 3 years into IT I realize how terribly wrong I was.
During the first 2 years I had no time to ponder over this considering all the time I had to spend commuting from home to office and the rest of it dedicate to a delicately placed support project. Then with God's grace my project changed and so did the location. I now had quite some opportunity for coding. Just when I began to think I might like this stuff, came the second blow! I was shifted to another support project.
Now I think maybe this is God's plan for me. He/she, whoever it is, doesn't want me to stay in this field and is providing me with opportunities to get the hell out of here and find my place in this big wide world. This very thought seems to light me up. It gives me a new hope of moving forward and doing my bit of best to figure things out for myself.
The whole anonymity of the situation - of not knowing what's out there, is what lures me even more into finding it out! The hope that something wonderful might happen if I just give it a try (and not hold myself back and think what others might think of me) gives me the strength to move on. Somebody once told me, 'You know when you write don't think much about it, just go ahead and write what you have to'. I guess the same holds true for almost anything and everything. I never really got hold of the old saying in Gita 'Karmanye Vadhikaaraste Maafaleshu Kadaachanuh' - I mean how can I work for something without even knowing what to expect. Now somehow, I understand the situation. If you want something, just go ahead and do it, without thinking of the odds in the way. If what you do does not hurt anybody else, then what's the harm!
Words are so damn powerful.... used in the correct manner they have the power to manipulate your thoughts (mogoj dholayi, wow!!) I came across this blog - http://literaryjukebox.brainpickings.org/post/62896499485 - very inspiring :)
